Sweeteriffic arts

Maya and her Cagroo by =purplekecleon on deviantART


This pic made my day.

Anime sucks

I feel really sad and no one cares.

Or they just can't do anything about it.

or they just have more pressing matters at the moment.

Or they're just tired of hearing the same crap whilst understandable has buried me so far into depressijavascript:void(0)on I'll never get out.

4,330
2,435

Hmm not impressive,
though I've sorta stopped caring about pokemon and shit, so that's why I haven't been walking, plus it was hot as shit.

and flip flops hurts my feets

610 steps @ 1:24pm

THis site says I should average 10,000 steps a day per week

-7 3,606
-6 4,136
-5 12,071
-4 4,282
-3 8,974
-2 4,330
-1 2,435

So that's... 39,834 divided by seven... 5,690.5 I think... (DOING IN HEAD CUZ I SMRT) Double check on calculatrix AH THE CALCULATOR IS BROKEN WON'T ADD FUCK YOU WINDOWS SEVEN I'M SNRT

Ptth

Also Papa seems a lot better today =]

That cute nurse wasn't there tho =\

Ah well

Back in time

Had a dream where me and my little bro went back in time to try to fix something.

It just turned into trying to fix what went wrong with out lives though, then going down memeory lane and eating pringle ridges.

We eventually got in a fight after trying to get pokemon cards and split up.

That was a weird dream....

Dark Side of the Moon

Well, me and nana went to see papa today, he was acting real erratic, hallucinating, tearing off his covers, arguing with us. I think the effects of Haloperidol are still with him, possible permanently.

The doctors say he has a delirium from being in a hospital, because that totally happens everytime you go to a hospital. Seems to me like that's bullshit though.

I had a real bad urge to go somewhere today, as I often do. I've really been wanting to do something for a long while... though I never know what it is, everything I try seems pointless...

That's what I've been telling myself. The past two years I've been trying to get it out of my mind, but the sad truth is that until I meet my dreamgirl, I'm not going to let myself move on in life.

Thing is she doesn't want a damn to do with me, though uncertain if it's specifically me, or a broader audience I'm included in...

Hell, it may be she has a life and simply doesn't get on the internets which is my only means of communicating with her... via myface =\

I really want to go back and find her, but I know that I'd never find her just by going up to the mountain and looking around. Though actually... I had an odd dream a bit ago, where she was actually down a road I never went, because well, it was outskirts. and it turned out she was in a town near Flagstaff...

Maybe I should look there?

Hmm, looking at google maps, there is a small town down that road, though it doesn't show a name... maybe it's an extension of Flagstaff?

aunno, I guess nana saying she'd fix my car so I could go my own way must have gotten my subconscious excited, because all day today I've been having an urge to hit the road. Walking around helps, but still, I feel pretty bad.


I dunno, I guess I just feel that if I find Jennifer, that life will be good, and I can finally move on with my life, make comics, animate cartoons, make videa games, write songs, et cetera, et cetera...

Though I still don't know if it's just a subconscious feeling that how my life got really depressing and generally bad exponentially since I moved from Lark Lane, the place where we used to live, that if I got a piece of my past, my life would be normal again... or something else.

The only reason I have to believe that this isn't just some mental thing is the fact that I hadn't seen her since we were like seven or something, still technically haven't if you don't count myface photos 9_9

Even if I meet her and she's a skanky-ass ho, or too stupid, or too weak, or something that blatantly sets her apart from the girl in my dreams (personality wise, as she looks exactly like her) Then I'd finally would know that there's no one out there waiting for me to save her (or vise-versa, I mean come on! I'm dying here LOL)

Maybe I could just go out there, get a job, and find a place to live while I look.

... or win the lottery.

Memory lane

Welp, went walking through old neighborhoods, when I came back I was short a thousand steps so I went a lap around the blocks.

My legs don't hurt, but man is it hot out today. Also my damn calves keep chaffing, fucking fat guy problems. Also drinking sparkling water beverage from HEB: Cherry. Maybe if I cut down on better tasting drinks I might lose some weight, hopefully in the legs T_T

Steps as of 5:30pm: 7,665

Plan on walking some more later, now to try to get a flying pikachu!

8,974 steps

Starting out

Okay, last night I weighed myself at 255lbs, which is pretty normal (weighed between 240 and 260 since I was 13)

Pretty much the only places I have fat are my gut and thighs, the rest doesn't really annoy me at any time, my arms are kinda scrawny, so I guess I should work on them too to try to burn the most calories. I'm also gonna try to increase intake by eating peanut butter crackers as snacks.

0 Steps @ 11:01am

O.K. my friggin' shins really hurt so I'm gona do beyond the sea for 5,000 steps... Maybe I can geta staryu. 1,005 steps @ 1:19pm

4,282 steps... tried walking a bit, got staryu anyways =D

Pokewalker

Okay, well I downloaded Yellow forest yesterday and I found out two things: sending gifts to heartgold sends all your watts, and steps don't carry over to the next day.

So today I decided instead of walking to HEB, I'd walk. Apparently it's OVER 9,000 steps to HEB and back (10,000 or so) which translates into 5 miles sorta. And google maps saaaayys.... 2.3 miles to there, so around 4.6 maybe perhaps.

Also when I was about to leave HEB I checked the walker and Sandy (my sandshrew) found a Light Ball! Sweet! I chuckled and creeped out the lady in front of me.

When I got back I was surprised that the only thing that really hurt was the front of my feets (I often have a hard time breathing after going to HEB and back, maybe cuz I'm usually broke and starving) and that walking to HEB and back was 5 miles, I used to do this all the time when my car was broke.

So, I'm thinking, since I want a flying and surfing pikachu so bad, as well as free gifts, I'm gonna see if I can get some damn Dr. Schools and walk to HEB and back everyday (at least!) and see if I can lose my dunlap and chaffing thighs. (Hey, my little bro walked around town all the time and he's skinny as a pole! When he was 15 he looked like a me without a hat)

Also I'm gonna try to snack on peanut butter crackers every 4 hours or something, as eating alot raises your metabolotismis whereas having one meal a day sets your body into starvation mode (my only theory why I'm fat even though I never eat)

SOOOO Here's hoping I can lose my spare tire!

Also for bonus missions I'm gonna try to help nana out with her yard and do push-ups when I remember to.


12,071 Steps @ 10:44 PM, now gonna finish watching Zim, take a shower, and hit the hay.

My damn feets hurts.

Dreams

The T.C.: Hey it's 6:00. Like I just had the weirdest dream. Like I was talking to you in bed about something (forgot) then we tried to go to sleep, but you were lying your eye on my hand causing it to twitch, I tried ignoring it, but my hand fell asleep and I decided to watch TV, it was a western where some injun was trying to get away from some crazy white guy who wanted his money and he kept throwing...
The T.C.: knives at him, anyway for some reason he threw a rock in his mouth and he started choking then words saying "HE'S REALLY CHOKING" flashed in white text, like it looked real old LOL it all seemed pretty real. Also we were in some dump, but it felt really good, like sleeping outside without bugs somehow.
The T.C.: Anyway I had to tell you that LOL welp I gotta slide on up to Temple and see if papa's doing any better, I hope so. Odd thing was I got six hours sleep, and this is the first time I felt good getting up, guess cuz it's the first time I hadn't had a nightmare.
The T.C.: Oh yeah, I asked you "How did I get here?" thinking about my busted car and you were like "Aunno LOL"
The T.C.: Welp dream time is over, gotta suit up and go to the hopspital.